The Words You Wield

What a crazy weekend

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 04:12:02 GMT

So for Halloween my bff Kyle and I threw a smashing party at my family's place of business. My family owns a motorcycle shop so we had a 'shop of horrors' thing going on. It was fun. We had a hookah there, which we had to google on how to work it because we are all noobs. lol. It was okay, I don't think I was doing it correctly so yeah. And we had one little fight between my two drunk friends. A couple dressed up in full fledged Blue Barricuda outfit from Legends of the Hidden Temple, helmets and ugly yellow sweatpants and all. They got the ribbon for most original costume. :) And this is what my boyfriend, my dog, myself and my best friend dressed up as.

My dog kept his costume on practically all night, I was so proud of him. I eventually just took it off to give him a break.

Oh and did I say my boyfriend? I meant my fiance yayay! He asked me to marry him tonight, whilst we were watching the minnesota vs green bay game. lol. I got engaged in sweatpants and a hoodie and watching a football game. hehe. I told him not in public or I would flip out, so it was cute. :) So happy yay! Here's a pic of the ring! It is hard to take close ups, even with my crazy should be totally awesome all the time camera.

:D

Now...I must resist the urge to plan my wedding and instead not fail student teaching next semester. It's going to be rough.

Really close to breaking

Wed, 28 Oct 2009 02:20:30 GMT

The last few days=ridiculous. The next few days= more ridiculous. This was not a good semester to procrastinate. Psh, this is really just not a good semester.

I have two block experiences to do, one 45 hours, one 60 hours. And they have to be done by Decemeber 1st. For those of you who have no idea what I'm talking about, block is basically 3 weeks where you prepare for student teaching the next semester by going to a classroom, observing and teaching a bit. Because I'm a dual major I have to do two, one for Earth Science and one for Library Science. You normally can't do two at once, but I whined and got one to be an independent study so it was possible.

Then my mom was like oh hai, you're going to Florida Thursday, not Friday! Which, yes is awesome, but now I have to take another day off block that I have to make up. I wish I was going longer so I could see certain Floridians, but I'm still not going to have enough time to play. It stinks.

I have lots of crap to do, the biggest being writing two units. 7 days worth of lesson plans. Gah. And a 7 page resource paper. I'm giving a planetarium show Thursday to a bunch of YMCA after school kids, planning and finishing the Christmas show, planning this Twilight party I want to have in the planetarium which involves buying the rights, which is close to 1000 bucks, and not trying to murder myself. Oh, and somehow not flunk out of the online class that I'm two chapters behind in, because by the time I come home the last thing I want to do is homework.

Plus, I had a really bad couple days food wise. Home is a freaking pit of despair when it comes to such things, and I'm 11 points in the hole right now. Just got my period too, so I'm feeling all girly and lonely and blah. Kind of felt this way for awhile though, like my friends are blowing me off and friendships I thought were cool are not really anymore and it blows.

I really want to explode. Student teaching is probably going to be a welcome release from all this. Or...it's going to be hell.

Take that, fat reserves!

Thu, 22 Oct 2009 22:43:04 GMT

So I lost my first 10 pounds! Yayayayayay! Now if only I hadn't gained all that extra weight, I would be only ten pounds away from my super goal. But, alas, I am now 20. Oh well. I've actually LOST weight for once, and a good chunk of it, so I don't care. And I did it in a month basically, with minimal exercise too. Very minimal. I really must not be eating many calories in a day. Yeah it too me almost 3 months to lose 6 pounds, and then I gained 10 back. Yeah...not doing this by myself again me thinks.

Anyways. I am happy, but I am starving right now lol. Okay not starving, but I really just want to eat all the stuffed shells from yesterday that are left. They are taunting me, and they aren't even that good. Way too much oregano, but that's what it said! I checked like 5 times to make sure I didn't do the old tablespoon-teaspoon catastrophe I usually do. In other news, the chocolate banana wontons were deliiiiiicious.

Weight Watchers makes you track your hunger signals before and after you eat something so you become conscience of what drives you to eat, and also just makes you think about if you're really full or not. I would say I am full, but I'm nervous about tomorrow(going to go to a school and observe for a little while and meet my co-op teacher) and I have homework to finish and I really just want to go to sleep for a really long time. So I think I just want to eat to distract myself/from stress.

The next 10 are going to be difficult, I can feel it. I had a lot of control this last month, but I'm still not used to eating so little and controlling myself. I also really didn't have to exercise much, but we're getting into the fat cells I've had since 5th grade, so this is going to take extra effort! lol. The last 10 are either going to be impossible, or I will finally get rid of my old mindset. I don't know yet. It's way too early to tell. Here's hoping I can hang in there until then.

Weight a Moment, I Have an Update. (Yes, feel free to kill me for puns)

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 05:54:57 GMT

So KR's post reminded that I have not mentioned my current dieting issues and if in fact I am still trying or just stuffing chocolate bars down my throat nowadays. And an icon with Benjamin Linus holding a chicken in oven mits is just perfect for whatever dieting scheme entries I make from now on. Diabolical and delicious.

So I signed up for Weight Watchers with my mom's help. I wasn't sure if I wanted to do it, but obviously I made up my mind. I'm doing it online, too. I was kind of eh on that, because I didn't know if I could actually hold myself accountable just doing it online and not having to weigh in, but it's all good. It does make me feel more accountable even online because you have to electronically weigh in, and just having a set limit of points helps too. Even though the program is not a real person, it still kind of feels that way, like you can't let it down lol. Points are just so much easier to count than calories, although it is still annoying counting.

I really like it. I mean, I basically want to kill myself some days when I run out of points, especially last weekend when I went home and spent my daily AND weekly bonus points in one day on chinese food, but it's been really good. I've been eating TONS better than I ever did, and I ate pretty good to begin with, and I've been making a lot of things. Made Salisbury steak and French toast with blueberry sauce today. Chicken Gumbo was delicious even though I put LOTS of Creole spice in it. Totally making chocolate and banana wontons this week.
And it actually works because I lost 7 pounds since the 1st of this month, so yay! Have to ramp up my exercising though or else I'm going to get stuck. I know it's almost sounds too good to be true in regards to advertisements and such, but I would recommend it. I almost hate saying that because I don't like being a conformist lol, but it's the truth. I feel like I spend a lot of money on food too, but it's because I really do not have a very well stocked kitchen here. I just can't. Not enough space and such. It is a pain in the ass to go out to eat too, unless you go somewhere with points on the menu. They do have a lot of restaurants on the website though, but not ones like Friday's and EatnPark. Got to do the math yourself.

Anyways, I'm really hopeful with this. I feel like a lot of the pressure has been lifted off of me and that helps.

Boo

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 04:03:38 GMT

So my boyfriend did not get this Mitsubishi job, which means no Japan for either of us in 1.5 years. :( I was grumpy for the rest of the day when he told me they'd called. My only hope is that the person they wanted (which it was only down to two people at the end) realizes in the next week that it's OMFG JAPAN FOR SIX MONTHS! and rejects the job and they come crawling back to Tim.

All he has to do is say yes to another job and he's basically got it, but he was waiting to hear from Mitsubishi. It's in...Alabama, and it's only for a year. Alabama, Japan, Japan, Alabama. Yes I would rather uproot my whole life for 6 months and move to Japan than spend even a second in Alabama. I would only be there for maybe half a year because I still have school to finish, but then HE'D be in freaking Alabama and not 2 hours away from me. At least we would've went to Japan together. And after a year, he won't have a job again with this place. Lovely. After living in two places for the last 5 years, I'm not really all that thrilled at the prospect of moving place to place every year or so, but apparently temp. contract jobs are the only ones out there right now for entry level mech engies.

So now I am tasked again with posting his resume on every job site and finding companies that look promising.

Whatevs, life. And it's technically not even my life.

NaNo

Tue, 13 Oct 2009 00:14:34 GMT

So I'm doing NaNo this year, or at least attempting to do it this year. It would be my first time and the prospect doesn't scare me so much because I'm pretty good at just writing lots of crap when I get down to it, but I just don't know what to work on. I've been getting tons of ideas lately, not sure why. Everything just becomes, "oh, that would be fun to turn into something!" Not that I'm really complaining, but now I have my laundry list of old ideas and a bunch of others and it hurts my brain.

I should probably work on my prequel to DoS and be a good fanfiction author, but I don't know. That's a lot of prep stuff that I haven't done yet, but I feel like my days of fanfiction are coming to a close and I should do my best to get this stuff out as soon as I can. Okay this post really has little point, besides to say that I'm doing NaNo. And now, I go back to watching Star Wars. :)

Things that are cool and in my future

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 04:33:48 GMT

This semester hasn't been all that great. My recent yo yo of weight has made me quite miserable and I think these new BC pills are craaaaazy, but we'll give them another month. I wish my boyfriend would just get his penis snipped already.

Anyways.

We have an antique house here in my small town college...town, and my grandmother, mother and I went there when they came up on my birthday. We found an antique library desk and it's pretty sweet. I can't find a picture of it on Google so you'll have to wait until I take pictures. But my mom got it for me! I'm going to go pick it up Thursday where I hope there will be many strapping young lads, because I'm not carrying it down those steps. I will officially be on my way to being a cool librarian with this desk.

I'm interning in the planetarium, as some of you already know, and my one project is to make a show about constellations and their stories. Well my professor gave me a book on Indian legends and I found some entries for the Quilette, or however you spell their name. (You know, those guys in Twilight ;) So I thought of a cool idea to have a five-ish minute presentation on their star lore, and then watch the movie in the planetarium. And my professor agreed! Good timing too for New Moon coming out. Twilight finds ways to be in my life; it's a sneaky bastard.

I'm also throwing a hopefully awesome Halloween party at my family's place of business this year. We're planning some fun times with drinking games, dancing and hookahs (and possibly a haunted quad ride), so I'm looking forward to that.

I'm going to Florida for four days in November, yay! I don't really like Florida, but I could use some sun considering we saw so little of it this year. My grandmother's 90th bday is that month, and I didn't think I'd be able to go because of college, but I asked my prof and she said I could just make up my assignments, so I'm excited. I think I got over the hideous pain I get every time we land too, I don't know what fixed that, but I don't care!

And for Christmas break, I am going to watch the most awesome dog for two weeks...oh and get paid, but I don't really care. He is a brindle long haired LAB mix, he is so freaking cool looking. His name is Rhett, and even though I hate that book/movie, I love him. These people have a house that I would buy in a heartbeat and I get to stay there and play in their huge backyard and enjoy life. They make him wear a stupid electric collar, so I'm going to try to use my dog whisperer skills and train him so they don't use it anymore. But shhh.

And that's the happy in my life. I'm going to try and concentrate on this stuff when I can't take my life anymore.

Thanks!

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 00:42:50 GMT

Thanks to everyone who took my survey last week! You were a big help. :D If anyone's interested in the real answers, most of them can be found at this website. I suggest uh, some of you check it out. haha =P

Survey for Class

Tue, 29 Sep 2009 20:56:41 GMT

Can any who happens across my LJ please take this survey by Wednesday night? It's for my teaching class. I'll screen the answers so don't worry about being stupid or whatever in front of people. And don't CHEAT. I won't think you're stupid if you get stuff wrong, and it's the point of the survey- to see what misconceptions people have about science. Thanks!!! :)

1. What causes the phases of the moon?
2. Does the Moon spin?
3. Can you see the Moon during the day?
4. Does the moon appear larger on the horizon than when it is high in the sky?
5. What are tides and what causes them?
6. Does the effect of tides change with the phases of the moon? (Is there more of a pull at different times?)
7. Is the ocean affected by tides any different from a small body of water, such as a Lake Erie?

Circlet Project Update

Tue, 29 Sep 2009 01:57:48 GMT

the_circlet has moved to its own website! And I thought I should mention it on my LJ because I moved it there, and because I can. Everything is pretty much set up at this point, so go take a look if you are interested. And I know it sucks that I don't have a paid domain and what not, but depending on how well this does...we shall see. The main website is our advertisement to the world, and there's also a place for our members to post their stories if they want. The forum is really where everything happens. Where we edit and review one another's work, have writing workshops and general writing discussions.

Anyways, here's the link to the website. You can't see the forum unless you're a member, so sorry for that. But it's for protection and what not. If you're interested in joining, let me know! :)

9 out of 10 Kirks agree...this sucks.

Mon, 28 Sep 2009 21:24:59 GMT

So I went to the doctor's today to get a TB shot. The weirdest shot ever. They shoot it under the skin of your forearm and make a little bump like a bug bite. I have to go back Wednesday and apparently how hard or soft the bump is by then determines if I have TB or not. I do not remember having this done, ever. She said they used to use a three prong shot/device/thing, but I don't remember that either. I also got a Tetanus shot, I didn't even feel that one. Oh I feel it now though, freaking ruining my whole arm. Seriously, shoot me up anywhere besides my inbow and I'm good. You touch that, it's murder.

Anyways, I asked her about my sudden and enraging weight gain even though I was dieting, and she was like "lolz, it's life!" and I wanted to die. Even though I've never, ever gained a whole bunch of weight during the beginning of school, she said it happens. Stress and life and being American. Blah blah BLAH. I wish there was just something horribly wrong with me instead. It would make all this easier not to hate myself. SO LAME. She said she recommends Weight Watchers, but that's about it. I asked her about ALI and she said it's basically a laxative...and to take it when I didn't plan on going out somewhere in case my insides decided to explode lol. I don't have the money for Weight Watchers right now.

I still don't know how it's even possible for me to have gained this weight back, when I can count only two days that I went over 2500 calories. There was NO EXTRA STUFF for this to even happen.

Blah. If I think about this anymore right now I'm going to jump out my window.

Fun & Frustrations

Thu, 24 Sep 2009 03:56:07 GMT

So this has been my semester so far.

My new car is awesome and I love it, and it's a lot of fun driving up to school. My old cars started shaking around 75 mph so I knew when to slow down, but this new one is so freaking smooth that I could be going 90 and not realize it. It's amazing what new cars are like. lol And I have air conditioning so I don't have to drive with the windows down going 70 anymore, and glorious cup holders! And the AUX jack is awesome. I really love it and am glad I picked it. *squeezes the sportage* It's not my dream sports car, it's my practical CUV, but that's okay. I'll get a sports car later.

Playing in the Planetarium is about the only thing I want to do these days. It's so much fun. I can go in whenever I want and just play around. I can't see stars worth crap at home, or most days it's cloudy here too. I get to see all the stars I want there, even though they're not real. I feel like it's a bad idea to leave it locked and dark because of horny college kids, and I'm afraid I'm going to walk in one day and see naked people. lol. Making/fixing shows is realllly tedious, but I'm used to tedious jobs so it's okay.

I missed my room/apartment.

And I love this HBO on my tv now. Wee!

But I miss my animals at home, my parents, and my boyfriend. I'm tired of this long distance relationship for the past 4 years. And if he gets this Japan job and think he's going without me, he's freaking CRAZY. Just want to be together.

And I'm really tired of college. It needs to be over. I have hw to do and I'm just thinking it's all so pointless. I want to bail out and just write and play in planetariums. I literally have to drag myself to do anything these days, and most of the time I end up forgetting. It's really not good. 8 more months and it'll all be over. Just need to hang in there.

My weight loss did not go well. Somehow I managed to gain all 5 almost 6 pounds I lost back in the span of four days. I have no idea what happened, and it's so utterly frustrating that I could kill a whole village. My pants barely fit, and that's not good because winter is slowly approaching. This all just SUCKS. Two and a half months utterly wasted. Whether it's water weight or not it's still there and I don't know how to get rid of it. I've still be dieting and should have lost another pound, but the scale is just not moving no matter what I do. I have a doctor's appointment next week and I printed out my whole diet sheet for every day and I'm going to show them and tell them everything and see what they think. I would consider being pregnant had I not taken a preggers test recently, and then got my period. lol.

I'm Learning To Ask For Help

Mon, 21 Sep 2009 05:03:13 GMT

Does anyone want to take over smclub for me? I really, really love it still, but I just don't have enough time. So if you think "wow, I could totally rock this community out and make it awesome" let me know! Post over here if you want the position, or you can PM me. Whatevs.

Drop and Give Me 15

Wed, 16 Sep 2009 02:30:04 GMT

Yay I'm back! :) So I decided updating this every 5 days would be good. Easy to keep track of. And yaaay I love being back at school. Finally get to control what goes in my stupid mouth.

Count: 4176
Total: 21030 (Yes I'm adding onto my other stuff because it makes me feel better about myself. =P 21000 is 6 pounds, technically, buuut I don't know if I screwed everything up by my couple days home. So! Tomorrow I'm going to the gym and actually remembering to use the scale, or maybe I can get on the scale at the health center when I go hand in papers. Either way, I need to see what the damage is.

Pounds and Books

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 23:39:02 GMT

Basically my diet died on Day 36. Since then I haven't recorded anything. BUT! By Day 36 I had a Total Calorie Loss of 17129, which is really very close to five pounds. So hurray! And no, I'm not giving up. I have been sidetracked, is all. It happens. The phoenix shall rise again. :) So my hunt shall begin anew tomorrow.

Now to the books!

I've read two books recently...well, four technically. The first was a trilogy in one kind of deal by Ted Dekker, called the Circle Trilogy. Basically some guy can go to the future in his dreams and discovers a virus kills most of the world's population. From then on everything that happens in the past is a clue for the future, everything that happens in the future is a clue for the past, and he has to stay alive in both of them. It was...sigh, I hate reading spiritual books. Like His Dark Materials destroyed my brain, and this did pretty much the same thing but just in reverse. It was pretty interesting (I mean, I did read them fast like WHOA), a little preachy, but overall I did enjoy my time. He's not your typical Christian writer...he's pretty dark. So that's always good. :)

Then I read Storm Glass by Maria Synder. She wrote another series I have called the Study Series, and this is...the Glass series? I don't know. I really liked the first series, and the new protagonist, Opal, is from the first series. Lots of characters, including the protagonist from the first series, make an appearance. I kind of felt like the first series was better written, though. And Opal is kind of annoying, but she grew throughout the book so it was mostly acceptable. One sentence description: she's an apprentice magician that can put magic in glass and goes to help the stormdancers, who funnel storms into glass balls for energy. Lots of other stuff happens as a result though.

And that's pretty much it.

About That Thing...Called Sex

Mon, 07 Sep 2009 07:32:33 GMT

Quick side note before I begin: I haven't stopped dieting, so don't fret. Even though I know you weren't. I just kept forgetting to bring my stupid piece of paper with my calculations on it every time I went to the library last week. I've been home since Thursday afternoon, but of course I didn't bring it home either. Annnnd if I didn't gain a pound back after this weekend, it'll be amazing. There's no way I could have counted all the stuff I ate so I don't know...we'll just have to see. Or I might need to just start over? Sigh.

Anyways...

Awhile back I was all ahhhhh I need help! or whatever about a certain subject. Some may have strung it together and figured it out that my poor sex life, which was already under enough pressure from aspects of my past and what not, was struggling hardcore. It got to the point where I was thinking my boyfriend was going to dump me if this continued on for much longer (he never said such a thing, I was just thinking it, so don't worry). So that's when I decided to see a doctor and woman up. I also stopped taking my BC because 1) I ran out of prescriptions and forgot, oops and 2) I read that it can have an effect on your sex drive.

So I went to the gyno, who reminded me of a New Orleans medicine woman. (She seriously HUMMED the whole time. Slightly weird?) I told her of my issue and she prescribed me a new BC. So I have been awaiting my period (which was late because of my messing up schedule...yay love taking pregnancy tests) to begin the new stuff. This all happened maybe six weeks ago? Seven? In just the first week without BC I was pretty much back to my old self. It was amazing. All I had to do was stop taking it and I was good as gold. I can't believe some stupid little pill was making me so crazy and screwing with my whole body. I mean...it's supposed to mess with my body, but not like it was. I have been hesitant to start the new BC because I don't want to go back to the way I was. It was deeeepressing. I've been on it since Friday so I don't know how it'll effect me yet. I hope it doesn't.

REALLY HOPE. So yay for being cured for the last stretch of summer, at least!

Looking back, I think it's mostly my fault this all happened anyways. I was fine on YAZ until May when I messed up taking it, and that's when the trouble began. Stopping and starting again did something to me I think. Or I was just so freaking ESTROGEN'D out that I needed a break. I can't remember if I ever missed a month before that....The medicine woman said this new stuff is not as harsh as YAZ is and also is SO MUCH FREAKING cheaper, so I don't know...we'll seeeee.

MORAL OF THE STORY: Don't mess up your BC, or don't take YAZ? Or just don't have sex in the first place? =P

Uuuugh

Fri, 04 Sep 2009 05:58:05 GMT

So I'm waiting to get into my class today and I walk over to the bulletin board. There's some articles about a wildlife project and now I want to give all my money to help owls fly again, but that's not what has me ughing.

There was a flyer to promote the Campus Conservatives, and the first line was like..."Do you believe God did such and such, is such and such" can't remember because it infuriated me. Please note: We do not have Young Republicans anymore...they mutated into the Campus Conservatives last semester instead.

Can people today seriously not be Republicans/Conservatives without being Christians anymore? That is not what the party originally stood for at all, but now they are pretty synonymous and it just angers me. When did this change happen?

I don't know what the Democrats have become...athiests? Everyone else? Eh? But I don't want to be a Democrat because I generally don't like big government, but I surely do not like what the Republican party has become.

There is little alternative to getting your voice heard without these two though...which also SUCKS.

I.HATE.POLITICS.

SO MUCH.

Internet Desert

Mon, 31 Aug 2009 23:42:46 GMT

Well, I messed up and didn't call comcast a week in advance, so I'm not getting internet in my apartment until next week. (on my birthday!) I'll be going to the library everyday (where I am now) to check on the comings and goings of my haunts, but I won't be on as nearly as often as I usually am...which is like all the time. So. Just thought I'd let you peeps know. I will be able to check twitter and my gmail through my phone though, so if you need me I will still be around for emergencies.

I don't know how I'm going to survive. Thankfully I'm going home Thursday (don't even know why I came up here to spend 2 full days at college) so that should help somewhat. ahhhhh

New Direction

Tue, 25 Aug 2009 06:26:54 GMT

Sorry I've been spamming my flist with my weight loss schemes. I'm going to stop posting these everyday and just save them for the end of the week because I feel bad. I hope it doesn't make me less responsible or whatever, but I don't think it will because I have to post them anyways.

And I could continue on with how my life is soon going to go in a new direction, and I realized it today as I am cleaning out my room because my mom wants to get rid of my/always been her furniture and it makes me sad. Or something. Not still quite sure how I feel. Just like something is going to happen and I know it, and I have that butterfly feeling of nervousness, but excitement too. I still have til May until I graduate, but it will go fast. Maybe too fast, or maybe not fast enough.

This is tough.

Drop and Give Me 15- Day Twenty-Seven

Tue, 25 Aug 2009 00:37:07 GMT

Eeeks. Yesterday was a bad day, and today didn't turn out like I planned either. I don't know if I'm going to the gym later or not, kind of feeling bleh, so I'll wait to do today's. Think I'm hitting my omg I want this to end and I don't care stage now. I am just tired of meticulously counting calories and not seeing awesome results, but I'm pushing myself as far as I pretty much can while I'm still at home. It sucks.

Calories Consumed: 2775
Calories Burned: 0
Leftovers: -275
Total Leftovers: 12017

Drop and Give Me 15- Day Twenty-Six

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 03:49:55 GMT

Calories Consumed: 2175
Calories Burned: 0
Leftovers: 325
Total Leftovers: 12292

Drop and Give Me 15- Day Twenty-Four & Twenty-Five

Sat, 22 Aug 2009 05:09:25 GMT

Yeaaaah I have no idea what my numbers are for the last two days, and I really just don't even want to attempt to figure them out at this point. So they're both jusy getting 2500s, and that sucks, but it's my fault for being lazy and not doing math. Oh well I still think I can make a pound by Sunday, so it's all good.

Calories Consumed for both days: 2500
Calories Burned for both days: 0
Leftovers for both days: 0
Total Leftovers: 11967

Last Year of College

Fri, 21 Aug 2009 02:04:27 GMT

I'm not realy sure how busy I'm going to be this last year of college. Because of my crazy career choices, I'm going to be taking two independent studies at the same time, one involving 60 hours of teaching field experience in the first couple weeks. I'm technically supposed to be taking this right now, in the summer, but as you may have astutely noticed, it is summer, and schools are not open. I tried getting into public libraries but noooobody wanted to call me back after I annoyed them several times, so whatever.

And then I have another 60 hours field experience at the end of the semester for another class. (If anyone's a teacher, I'm doing two methods classes at the same time basically which is usually not possible but yeah. BLAH.)

Then, my other independent study is working the planetarium and generally being awesome (about the only thing I'm looking forward to).

THEN, I have student teaching in the spring which is going to be...I don't even know. Think I'm either going to love it or hate it.

Oh, and I have a stupid online class that I'm taking over but that's child's play.

So hopefully, this is my fifth and final year at college, because I am over it. Everyone's all like waaah treasure these moments. Well I will...with lots of alcohol. But I'm done. I want my own place where I can do whatever I want and not be watched, and I'm sure my parents, even though I am their only child, want me out of here too. And my grandmother will not be staying at my place.

If would've just picked one of my majors, it still would've been 5 years. Would've gotten my masters for library science, or I would've done a specialty for earth science that is a whole 'nother year too. I wish I could get my masters still, but I think I'm just going to wait and see if the school I work at will pay for it.

Crazy crazy crazy crazy. Soooo many freaking things can go wrong this semester to make me not graduate by May. SO MANY.

And I want to write, too. Not sure how that's going to work out.

Drop and Give Me 15- Day Twenty Three

Thu, 20 Aug 2009 04:04:30 GMT

Calories Consumed: 1562
Calories Burned: 0
Leftovers: 938-602= 336
Total Leftovers: 11967

Back on track! Sorta. :) Totally intoxicated for the second day in a row...weeee at least I didn't eat a million calories after getting drunk today though.

Drop and Give Me 15- Day Twenty-Two

Wed, 19 Aug 2009 17:06:57 GMT

Oh boy...yesterday was a day of drink and merriment. Which equals me going way over 2500. But not over 3500...so yay? Tonight is a night of drink and merriment too, but I know it's coming this time and will be calorie prepared. Boy do I have some calories to work off for the next couple days...and some serious math to do.

Calories Consumed: 3102
Calories Burned: zip
Leftovers: -602
Total Leftovers: 11631